Last semester, friends that i usually go with at school are girls that are bisexuals. I know right? They admire people with their same sex *uugh~*. I'm not one of them by the way, that's fosho.
But now they are on a different schedule. Others already got their own set of friends. And i'm the only one that's left alone. *sobs* Anyway, now i only got friends during classes. A time where everybody's quiet and listens to the teacher. Though some of them do invited me on different hangouts, but i just don't know how to fit into their own languages. They're so mature. All they thought about were parties and sex. And i cannot relate to those kinds of stuffs, shizz. I also thought that some of them are homophobes. Maybe they thought that i'm gay and find it awkward talking to me. Or maybe they thought that i might actually court them one by one. Like SERIOUSLY??? 
*sighs* This issue made me so insensitive. It's just so hard to accept that i'm now a loner in my own school. This is not me. I even go to school late "on purpose" so that i won't have to wait for the class to start, alone. I don't even have a freakin' boyfriend!(ignore) Wait, am i getting dramatic here? NO. My life now is so much far from what i expected it to be. Im MONOPHOBIC for heaven's sake! Being alone is like death to me. A soul sucking monster that drags my inner reputation to infinity. :(
Geeeez, i wish i'm in a different school right now. To where my real friends at.
"A soul sucking monster that drags my inner reputation to infinity."
ReplyDeletewow...that's deep. anyhow, awwww.. cheer up! yer not alone dude. someday, someday... you'll meet your better half. :)
naaaaah, hahaha! i know you know what i meant dude.. :'( anyways you'll find yours too, soon. ^.^
ReplyDeletei had my own share of these experiences before. :D you know, the time when people thought i was gay? it'll pass, trust me. :D
ReplyDelete@shannon... if you really think of it like being alone is bad,sad or whatever, it will eat you up every single day. It makes you ignore the small things around you. Things..that may help you think otherwise. So, divert your mind into something productive for yourself. :)
ReplyDelete@roj... i guess the society have become more subjective. Just because some people dress like a baggy hiphop chain gang or something, talk like this, or even hang out with people with the same interest to their co-gender, they jump into conclusion that you're gay. it's sickening. :\
Eunice: i just dont know how~
ReplyDeletena trauma nako ana. You know, 2nd year days (if kahinomdom paka) LoL But i'll try dude, i'll try. :D
Rogean: yeah im glad im not alone. hehe.
mypagka boyish manjud ko beh, wa ko mahimo ani. *sighs*. Cge lang, i will have my breakthrough someday. LoL
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